hey

I HAVEN't PUT UP A NEW POST IN FOREVERS
BUT I suppose summers almost overs.
am i supposed to miss the summer
or be so glad to see my friends i haven't seen in forever.
SO EXCITED FOR THE NEW SCHOOL YEAR
SO EXCITED TO SEE EVERYONE
but at the same time i'm so over it
and i'm just getting bucked in and going to work hard this semester
i hope i work hard
i know imma play hard
twentyone in october
housewarming parties to come up
a brand new apartment and a brand new outlook on tomorrow.
i've been gone for a minute but don't forget
two more years with amazing friends. so little time to LITERALLY EMBRACE LIFE
HOLD ON.. this rides just getting started.

PS: jay sean is indian?

HAIRCUTS

I FINALLY CUT MY RAD MULLET THING/RAT's nest on the back of my head.
and for some reason
i felt compelled to cut my hair short
like super short
and then i realized i didn't want it that short
so then i was said to the nice vietnamese(i assume this under notion that i know what vietnamese sounds like even though its a language i don't understand)
well anyways, the nice vietnamese hairstylist smiled when i said stop, and panicked i said, "mohawk, but keep sides the same length"
she then proceeded
and i was like wow
this i me with short hair......i shouldreally buy a hat
not like that could fix anything really, but oh well
oh and also i went to Zebra's to replace the earrings that i lost
and then i lost the new earrings within the hour cause they fell out of my pockets
probably well i pulled out my cellphone
EFF PEOPLE WHO CALL ME ON THE PHONE!!!
notreallythough, because phone calls really brighten my day

GOAL UNTIL SPRING BREAK:
GO TO OCHEM

coming to terms

with midterms
haha
i had two yesterday
and one in about SIX hours
but you know what
celebration afterwards
i hope i can just try my best
whatever
i have hope
not being a negative nancy
or a skeptical susan
oh well
nervous laughter to the backbeat of say anything
is everything short of comforting
imma do something fun this weekend

keyboard

i obtained a new keyboard today
because the silly keyboard on my laptop broke
i kinda splurged and bought one of those nice awesome
overpriced, "gaming keyboards"
but the satisfying click of the keys under my palms is just unbeatable
plus this keyboard lights up!!!
yay for things that light up
like i hope my life starts to light up
all i have to get through is this one week
and then maybe
i can take a deep breath
regroup, rethink, reimagine my life
and reassemble my grades
with a side order of shopping and eating of course
HERE's to all the dreams, hopes, games, and clicks
that i can conjure up with my new keyboard
haha so much hype for an oversized toy
that still can't hold a stick up to transformers...
later days

p.s.

i hope no one actually reads this
because i think i might just start posting like crazy
writing my word vomit down
takes the bad taste out of my mouth

lately

my life is pretty amazing, with only 4 midterms looming over my head
i think i had the most amazing conversation
with someone i possibly have spoken to in my life
maybe the entirety of 100 words/phrases
car rides are truly amazing.
but this person yet unnamed
definitely had a bit more knowledge about this sophomore slump then even i do.
i feel like i haven't been able to vent
in probably so long
this may seem all so vague
but i think this conversation truly settled my gut, and made me think of a smile
of happier days, and even in overcast skies, life seems only partly cloudy.
((screw overcast weather, bringing my life down))
i doubt that this person even knows
that they saved my life and maybe even my perception of myself
and i know that i'm probably not actually crazy for thinking anything that i am thinking
i hope i study hard for chem
take a deep breath
life
camera
action!

2000, TWO THOUSAND and 8EIGHT

a great year, fairly momentus
i mean i survived 2 decades
i failed yet another new years resolution
this year i have a new years resolution:
get in shape!
shouldn't be too bad, i mean with the RSF,
but sadly all i think about when 2009 comes to mind
is... this is the year i turn 21
oh goodness, in about 10 months....
i don't even know what will happen
but it will be fun!

clarity

i just haven't been able to get three thoughts out my head lately
1. chemistry 3A, ugh i should be studying at this moment
2. chemistry 3A, FUG
3. and the fact that i think that i could pour my heart out
and no one would listen, [[well i'm sure someone would.
so to rephrase, no one with a bucket
to catch the contents of my leaking heart, would listen]]

i could be screaming at you across a room
only to hear my own sad whispers
i can't tell if this is lovesickness
or just plain heartbreak,
forgive me if this sounds to forward
but i feel like potential lovers take
a piece of my heart from words or actions left unsaid.
i say what if it could have been an adventure to the moon
or just a drawn out foray into nothing, and darkness
i think i self-destruct at the thought
of a girl i might like or one that might like me back
i mean i thought i loved the chase more than the catch
but everytime i let it slip through my fingers
i wish i hadn't, i wish i made a MOVE.
i mean what the hell is making a move anyways


I mean i'm not about to quit on love
but maybe take the seahorse approach
hold on as tight as i can, until a current sweeps me off my feet, or off my tail.
i think my last foray into a potential interest speaks for itself
she now currently is dating someone else, but why can't i be that someone else?
i am over it, so to speak
but i don't think i can get into the game,
in fact i'm tired of games, i just want something REAL

but how far down does this rabbit hole go?



as i take a deep breath
and try to hold it for 2 weeks of finals
i think i will try to leave these thoughts of unrequited love. behind me
and hopefully my heart won't turn into coal
but if it is coal, i hope its anthracite coal since thats most eco-friendly
and maybe a spark will melt this body of ice

sophomore slump continues indefinitely
and i'll be waiting for life preservers

hello blog world

so this is my foray into
blogspot
blogs
blocks
blogging
blogamania!
blogalicious
weblog
blogdude (yes the ti-83+ calculator game, Don't lie you know what this is!)
blog cabin
blog on the rocks
blog till you drop
repping the blog
blog dance party
blogsmas, blogsmakkah, blogzwaa
blogolodeon!
the SF blog area
blog your heart out

most importantly a blog from my point of view

wow! finals soon

lets see what this whole blog thing is even about